School is Stressful

2/26/2025

I don't know why but school has always been a source of stress for me throughout my entire life. I dont know whether its just because of the idea of not meassuring up or because its essentially someone testing you for 16+ years (elementary to middle to highschool to college) to see if you're "good enough" in some subject. Maybe its because now that I'm in college I have to start making real decisions about my life. Real, long lasting, life changing decisions. That's a lot of pressure, and its an expensive mistake to make if you decide that what career you chose isn't what you expected.

I think I'd much rather be in the work force already. Sure that brings new stressers and anxieties, but at least theres a time limit for most jobs! What I mean by that is that most jobs are a 9-5, you come in at 9am and leave at 5pm, an hour for lunch in between and then you're done for the day! Maybe some overtime here and there if you're really feelin it, but you dont have to worry about it after 5 though. I think thats what naws at me with school. You constantly feel like you could be doing somthing else, studying something else, there is ALWAYS something you can be doing in order to get just that point or two higher in that one class. Theres always one other side project that you could be doing. Theres always more leet code you could practice. Its all just too much.

I'm getting close to being done with school and honestly I can't wait. I just want to find a job and get on with the hustle and bustle of life. But I don't know. Perhaps I'll look back and be wishing that I could just be in school again because of x, y, and z! I'll just have to wait and see.